music of the soul...

music- it is an amazing thing. it can comfort us, understand us, sympathize with us, and relate with us. we all have music that we like- but we must ask why? there is music in everyones repertoire that they listen to just for the sake of listening to it, but then there is the music that means something to us. not only does it have meaning in itself, but we can also relate to it with past or present experiences. this is the music that tugs at our soul every time we listen to it and is the music that should be listened to- not just for the sake of listening. most people may say that this type of music has to require lyrics and words- however i think exactly the opposite. i believe that true music doesn't require lyrics and this is because when you listen to something without words- then you are forced to contemplate what the artist is trying to convey even still through just the sound of the music. meaning of sound is much harder to realize than meaning of words- but it is not a talent that cant be developed either. once you can gain this realization- music will mean so much more. listening to the right tune- you will feel like you are able to touch the sky and travel to heaven and back. i think its something we should all experience. with that said- i give special thanks to music genius- pat metheny.

getting away...

the thing about vacation is that we can never fully be in that state of mind and we can never fully escape it either. in life- we always say that we have to get away from our current situation but the fact is is that once we are away- all we want to do is return. but then once we return- things are not the same anymore- you have to again reach the state of equilibrium. so maybe- in its own light- maybe vacation and getting away is not all that it is cracked up to be- does it possibly cause more problems than it prevents? because the term of getting away could also be used in the form of running away from our problems- which we should never do. we should always face and battle them with a fierceness. yes- i think vacation can be a very soothing and relaxing time, but i also think that for us to be happy anywhere else- we must first be happy with our present situation, because no matter where we go- we can never escape life. oh we may try our hardest to escape our life and problems and we may even forget about them for a period or two, but they will always be there when you get back- unchanged and maybe even worse. so my words of advice to you who may read- fix your problems and worries now- don't try to run away from them, forget them, or wait for them to get fixed on their own- deal with them while you still have a chance. but in light of the holiday today i say- relax, because no matter what our current situation in life is- we always need relaxation...

calling in...

for me, i have got to say that today- i love the phone. it is very useful for many occasions of all imagines, but today it was very useful in getting me out of a very stressful situation- work. granted this might be a little one sided bad attitude here because i don't like my job very much anyway- but when you are feeling crappy- there's not much you can do about it. so- i have to thank alexander graham bell- because i love the luxury to call in sick- don't you? had it not been for that one phone call- most likely i would still be at work- and look at the time! yes yes, i am very glad that i did not have to work today- it felt like a big weight was lifted off my shoulders and i could go home and relax today. as i always say- everything happens for a reason- even including sickness.

reddo is...vado in...operor is...

abyssus lector, si vos es lectio is is opes ut vos have captus vicis ut reddo is pariter. curator est a funny res est non is, is can coegi nos efficio plures res ut nos have non perfectus pro. multipliciter is can exsisto a bonus res quod a nocens res. is can exsisto bonus quoniam is pulsus nostrum levamentum plaga vel iucunditas plaga si vos mos, tamen is can quoque exsisto nocens quoniam illic es nonnullus res in vita ut nemo should have usus of, plures cuius est lurking procul nostrum ianua hodie. tamen vel vegrandis factum of iens ut susicivus perturbo ut reddo is vegrandis insignificant blog est an factum of putus curator in ipsum. plerumque ego sententia is would exsisto funny experior sicco- iens rectus ex english ut latin- tamen illis quisnam did non reddo is- is has magis voluntas quam vos reputo. quod si is reddo has procedo horrendus nefas, tunc ego apologize- accuso penitus, quoniam ego miserabile operor ignoro latin. usquam illis sicco illic- bonus fortuna per totus vestri novus usus evestigatus per curator- utriusque bonus quod nocens.

-tamen commodo basium mihi per a million basium.

-if any of that made any sense to anyone, i will be truly amazed.

divine happenings...

isn't it amazing when something could go horribly wrong but for some reason or another it turns out alright. luckily this happened to me today- i was all set to do something tomorrow that i know i would have regretted had something that i did not expect to happen happened. whenever something like this happens- one with certain religious beliefs cannot help but wonder about these things. the thing is that today- me and my friends prayed about it- and then what happened soon after was out of my control- but i wouldn't change it if i could either. all in all- today turned out alright. it was a day of realization and overall enlightenment- i wouldn't have it any other way- but may his will be done.

misconstrued faults...

why is it always a fact that most of the time when there is fault to be found- it is inside yourself? sometimes we make the huge mistake of thinking someone else is at fault- you rationalize and reason to make it make sense- but all along it is your own fault staring you in the face. i think everyone including me has made this mistake at one time or another, but we always need to realize when it happens soon because sometimes we realize it too late- i just hope it is not. having made this mistake tonight i am very glad to realize what i did wrong- with some help from a very wise friend, but i am also very sad and regretful- which i suppose is only normal. all i can do now is ask forgiveness and hope the innocent party accepts. life is a learning process- in every aspect, sometimes we make mistakes- big ones and small ones. we just have to learn from our mistakes so we will not make them in the future. but i know that i have learned from mine tonight and i will not make the same mistake again. having said that- to the innocent party i say- i am sorry- sorry for the mistakes i have committed tonight and the ones i will most likely commit in the future. even if this is not that big of a deal- i ask for forgiveness- and i hope you accept.

Where We Are....

Where have you been, between now and then?

Were you hiding away from the dread of the day,

or away from the night which brings nothing but fright?

Were you running quite fast from the fear that is your past, 

or shying away from the future events of today?

Was i wrong - have you been here all along?

Where have i been between now and then?

I was searching for someone again and again.

Someone who desperately needed to be found,

to be brought back to life from lying dead on the ground.

Someone who could gratefully appreciate life, 

even after going through the journey and all the perils of strife.

Where have you gone - when i was searching for you all along?

Its been a long long time between now and then,

but it appears that my search may have come to an end.

For some time you were lost and then you were found.

For awhile i was searching and then you found me.

Before the closure i find in looking back through time.

Sometimes i wonder how we got to where we are between then and now.