new beginnings...

with every new piece of knowledge, wisdom or perspective that we attain- we must look at our past once more before making the the decision to follow through with that which we have learned. tonight- i have been blessed with a glorious new perspective. even though it had been lying before me my whole life- i still did not see it. all my life i have a been a strong willed child which unfortunately means that i have wanted to follow my own path in life and no one elses and which sometimes included neglecting the advice from the people that care to give it the most. although the quality of strong will can be both good and bad- in my opinion the cons of being strong willed outweigh the pros. so after looking back at my life once more i have realized that strong will has hindered my life more than help it. i know now that i must turn that around once and for all and finally listen and learn from those who have been trying to help me out ever since and even before i was born. to me- it is that simple and which is why i dont know why i never realized it in the first place- do what you are called to do and your life will be all and more that it needs to be- thats all. but at this very moment- contrary to what you may believe- this perspective has alot more to do with me and my relationship with the Lord than it does with my parents. although my parents are there for the same goal as the Lord is- it is ultimately the Lord and only the Lord who will lead me into the right path towards my destiny that he solely created for my life. right now- i could not be happier- there have been so many things in my life that the Lord has blessed me with- some of the best recently- and this just adds to the list which is growing longer by each passing day. so as i step away from today and into the rest of my life there are only two words that i can use to describe what is happening in these very crucial moments of my life and they are- new beginnings....

every habit starts somewhere...

as i write this i think- every habit starts somewhere. i have known for a long time that i am somewhat of a decent writer, but i just have never brought myself to sitting down and acutally writing. so finally from a lot of thinking and some prodding from the proper people i have decided to make a habit of doing just that- writing. no matter what it is. granted- most of it will be crap, but at least it will be a step in the right direction. i realize writing- or blogging in this case is a great way to communicate with the world- even though i am pretty sure only 1 person will see this for a long while. but communication between people in any shape or form is good, especially in the case where it is a necessity for those individuals. having said that i can say to whoever might read this- look forward to the confessions of a perilous mind. you never know what you might find and you never know what you might take to heart. now with the words of edward r. murrow i say to you- good night and good luck.